Faithfulness

I don't want to say that I have given up on blogging...especially since that is the very thing I am doing right now...but it certainly has taken a back seat in the chaos that is currently my life :) I think so often about taking a moment or two to jot down what the Lord is showing me or teaching me but before I act on that thought, the day has ended and another has begun...only to have the same cycle happen all over again.

If I was to sum up the last few months of my life, the theme would be faithfulness...most specifically, God's faithfulness. I have questioned a number of things over the last few months...none all too earth shattering, but nonetheless important...and even in the midst of my very honest and real questions to the Lord about who He is and most specifically who He is in my life, He has shown Himself to me in even greater ways.

Lately, I think I have been struck more than anything else by the importance of our lens. I think that it is easy for any number of us to lose sight of what the Lord is doing...His presence...His power...His love...if all we see are the ways that we feel He has failed us. But what about all the times He has come through...has shown His presence...and His power...and His love? I find that the more I intentionally keep my focus on that, the less I stray into the heartache of the effects of our fallen world.

I read in a book recently that more than anything else, God just wants us to love Him. It is the only thing that He does not have the power to make us do. And it breaks my heart to think of all the times and ways when I have not loved Him well. I can't quite put into words yet what the Lord is doing in this season of my life...but even in outline form, it excites me...and I do love Him more because of it.